Occerpa and SonsofGod,
Let me clear something first: China Pond was as acute of incapacitation of the Road to Damascus was and is for Saint Paul (Paul of Tarsus). However, Saint Paul executed the devil by learning to devote to God that which was of God to God, and then fell to delivering eulogies of care for the Christian life of Jesus Christ. I, on the other hand, was sure that the meaning of the China Pond conversion was accurately portrayed as the termination of the work of a Thought Adjuster who wished to appear as the very proof of high revelation, that God was here, God prevailed, and that God would shepherd any and all who came before him as He must live through us. That needs to be understood through Sai Baba teachings as '"life everlasting with effort of life forever not construed without some form of intelligent effort to prevail against all odds against life in the spirit world of perfection." I am not quoting directly Occerpa but paraphrasing what I know of his philosophical discussions at all.
China Pond was a dividing point in my life, as without it, I could never write any essay on how God works or how God prays with us. Sai Baba does not say much about that point, but God has prayed with me frequently and blessedly for the comfort of my own soul so torn by endless conversions of evil against the sane life for anyone on Urantia, and to me and with me in an endless variety of redo, redone, and redo again. I am sick and tired of to redo, but this place called America is no better than Guatemala or Spanish Harlem in New York City, and its internecine gang wars and endless hostage taking and racial hatreds. China Pond was incapacitating to my physically for most of a year, and then it relented and I came across much to discuss but no one to discuss anything about it with or for or to. My only regret is that I did not there and then give up my employment, go home, and rest a year without ever getting another story from the Urantia Foundation and its sudden dislike of the Brotherhood enough to destroy it.
For reasons of my own I stuck it out and still have fits in my own mind over why do all this work only to die in my own bed with legs that refuse to function, eyes that do not focus, and a heart so strong it never gets upset with me and my battles to stay alive in some peace. Occerpa you insist on the doll/puppet analogy, and you repeat the endless discussion of environmentalists and psychologists the meaning of life. The contention is wrong on both extremes in that God preconditions life as it must live in His reality. But He does not insist on conformance which Sai Baba seems to be silent about. I have no argument with God whatsoever, as even the Creator Son is preconditioned by the Ultimacy of God while the Creator Son works in a time reality conditioned by the timeless variety of care by the Universal Father.
Sai Baba to me makes a good argument always, but he does not clarify that life is conditioned without conversion attempted to force man to do his will unless you have no personal power and then one is directed entirely by not being like a doll but by using the animal kingdom's guide called INSTINCT. I think Sai Baba feels there too much instinct being enforced in man's life and in that I would agree with him.
Last night I wen to be wonder what the next day the 10th of October would really spring as new us. The 10th of October is this day I write this at 10:30 AM where I live. It is cool but not cold; it is lovely out but empty, and I am sure there is great spirit activity, but I am greeted this morning with the goddamn cabal and I refuse to live with them whatever ever day it might mean at this time. For that reason I have nothing to say to anyone except we meet the day in each of our places, and we meet the conditions we are born with in those places; however, this day is still special, and I say this to Occerpa, SonsOfGod and to all of you:
Stay the course! This is far from over. And for reasons of my own, I am purifying nothing but waiting it out as best I can too, and that is to let the powers to be understand I stand to serve, and while evil makes my legs smashed in their own blood, I absolutely refuse to discuss anything the cabal, Lucifer, or any variation of evil that can be, for their good. China Pond speaks through daily: IT WAS REAL; WTP IS REAL; the hydrogen car is real, yet the motion to make them inventions into reality is fully thwarted by a goddamn cabal that has nothing to do with human life whatsoever, but that is where they go to sacrifice the goat! No one will ever tell me Occerpa you are correct about the doll, nor will I ever accept that suspicion that life is ordered by a puppet master, but there are preconditions, but those preconditions should never be interpreted as a master puppeteer ordering the play as in Punch and Judy would have you believe too. That is not directed to you Occerpa, but at the idiots in the churches and the government insisting they know better by something they think is the divine right to order man himself as intercessors for the Father's will or any divine will prevalent in our lives at any given point to work with.
The10th of October, as you say Occerpa, feels right in spite of no voice yet, but I expect even that is con travailing most of the entire matter of the last 80 years of history with a major revelation no one reads, and even most here have never read it through either. I will never understand that of any of you but again that is hardly a puppet that does not read the idea of a puppeteer in His own hand to command us. The Urantia Book hardly commands, but it does state our reality correctly.
Finally, I take it Occerpa you are convinced of the slavish doll idea and concept. I do not ever see it that way, and I am not sure Sai Baba really believes that yet, as his life is not yours anymore, nor is his life entirely mine either, as we disagree on only one point, and that is I have proof in my own life that the cooperative nature of God IS CONDITIONED by the material world of personality, and that God meets it beautifully even with great difficulty, but he does make amends to see it our way sometimes in spite of hard and fast rules not to do it that way ever. I have an open faced Adjuster speaking 24/7 and I have technical inventions they suggest will benefit Urantia always in a material patent developing quite well when they finally get over it being from a dummy. I love that. I really do!
The last day of time is today. That is what they tell us and I have no reason to disbelieve what they want to tell us. However, for your die hard individualists, it is a hard row to hoe again this day, as it must be fulfilled as personally decreed by JESUS and the spark of Infinity God through the Creator Son of Nebadon. I am not sorry about anything and may GOD;S WILL BE DONE!
Ron for all I claim to speak with on high. Thank you all.